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I started a work only blog. It's all my stories from work. So far I have two and they're funny. I'd like to keep it light hearted and not let it be a venting place.

It's called Tales of a Receptionist and it's all here: http://recepting.blogspot.com/

Enjoy! :)

It's offical I’ve managed to change my name twice in the last month and a half. First I was Renee Rogers. Then I decided to get married and become Renee Lorenz. So I legally changed it. Now at work I’m officially Renee Lentz. I don’t know how or why but I was sick Monday and when I came back there was Renee Lentz (half day) on the company calendar. I thought hmmm…must be coincidence. (Because there is another Rene here I just don’t know his last name). Then I saw it today…all the days off for my vacay…Renee Lentz…I don’t know how they did it. I mean Lorenz and Lentz aren’t even kind of close….I mean sure they both start with an L and end with a Z but really that’s it. I think it’s hilarious. Good thing all the legal things say Lorenz (like my pay check)….I wonder how long I can keep this up?

So I'm at work right now, as a receptionist. One of my main duties is to answer the phones (as most receptionists would do). Well there's a slight problem with that right now seeing as how the phone lines are down. I mean they're working to reboot everything but still, no calls. And seeing as how I already finished my other work this morning...I litterally have nothing to do...on the plus side this IS the quietest I have ever heard this office before 5pm!

Wow....I didn't think this still existed...I got married...I got a job at G&G Outfitters in Lanham, MD. It's a receptionist job and it's not at all fullfilling. I feel like I'm doing nothing with my life. I sit and answer phones all day and do mindless paperwork. I mean really...I got a college degree for this?! Ben keeps pushing me to apply for the fourth grade teaching job but I don't think I'm cut out to be a teacher... so I don't think that's right for me. I just feel like I don't know where I fit in yet in this world. Which really is a sucky feeling. And what's worse is that it seems everyone around me seems to know what they want and should do...LAME! Anyway, that's my life right now I guess...

I'M ENGAGED! I'M ENGAGED! I GOT ENGAGED LAST NIGHT!!! (details to follow later!) AHHHHH!!!! : )

So I've graduated from college and it kind of feels like my life is just on hold. Mainly because I have about a thousand decisions that I need to make but I'm just too afraid to make. I am moving back home in July or Aug. and I'm going to be taking a class at the Community College so I can stay on my parents insurance while I figure out what I'm going to do with my life...HOORAY! Remember that one time I was all, yeah! I want to be an acting major! Dear God what was I thinking?! Anyway, I've been thinking it over (and talking it over with Ben) and I think that it's a good idea to take some classes that would get me to the next steps of earning a second degree. So I think that I might be going into the field of social work and if acting doesn't work out I can work...socially! HA HA! Anyway, this fall I'm going to take probably a night class of Introduction to Sociology and see how I like that. After all nothing is set in stone yet right? My next step is trying to figure out where I'm going to work. I'm taking the next two months off though...I think I deserve it. Plus I'll be leaving on vacations with Ben and then my family at the end of June to the end of July. So I can't really start a job for a month then ask for a month off...I don't think it really works out so well that way. So we shall see...at least I have plenty of think time.

In other news... Ben and I are doing extraordinarily well. We are doing exciting things (nothing too exciting though...everyone needs to calm down). And we keep talking about the future and marriage and being together...so...yeah...that's exciting.

Remember that one time I took my winter jackets home because it was May? ...Now remember that one time that I needed my winter jackets in the middle of May?...WTF Mother Nature?! WTF?!

Walking into the center for the arts and hearing Naoko's laugh makes me uber happy!

I am going back and forth with being fine about this whole graduation thing and freaking out about it. I at least have a plan for next year...however the plan is not set in stone and dear god where am I going to work?! I don't even have a car! *sigh* I don't think I want to grow up. I feel that it is just easier to be a student for the rest of my life. At least when you're a student people expect you to be poor and they understand why you are poor.

I also feel like a slacker next to my boyfriend who has applied for, at the very least, three teaching jobs. I have not applied to one place. I was looking at the job listing in my area and have come to the realization that I am not qualified to do anything. All the jobs need this degree or that degree and if they don't they need at least two years of experience...dear god I have no experience for a full time ob for one year...I am going to be stuck at a job that a high school drop out would have. I am going to be working for people who are younger than me aren't I? I wouldn't have a problem with that if I weren't 22! *sigh* I guess I just have to hope for the best...it's hard though...

Got Scott Alan's cd off of iTunes last night. I think he may be on my top 5 composer's now. I am in LOVE with the music and there are some songs that I would adore to sing at an audition...one in particular that would be perfect for me but alas he doesn't have a piano score for the public...YET!!!

This thesis is consuming my life! Is it possible to graduate and NOT write a thesis? PLEASE????? I feel like all I'm doing is researching and getting no where...I may also be a little over this topic. You know when you do a comedy and you beat the jokes to death until they no longer seem funny to you... that's what my topic is like. Perhaps I just won't write this thesis so I can't graduate so I don't have to become a real person...is that acceptable? lol...no? ok...

In other news...

things are going really well in my romantic, personal, and professional life. (Ok so I don't have a professional life...so what? It can't be going badly then can it? ha ha!)

I don't really think there is anything else I need to say...nothing has changed for me recently except that I have more time since Noises Off ended. (Which is nice.) So there's that...and that is it!

And here it is:

Finally, there is Renee Rogers, who plays the airhead actress, capable only of doing her lines as rehearsed and in that order. That she is incapable of ad-libbing adds a giant layer of hilarity to the entire show, and Ms. Rogers plays it to the hilt. A smart actress, she realizes that even the dumbest blonde has to have heart and a nugget of smarts buried deeply, no matter how dumb she is. That Ms. Rogers does most of her acting in a blue satin teddy (and often on her hands and knees) is a testimony to her commitment to the role. I may never again think of a contact lens again without thinking of her.

And here's the rest: http://baltimore.broadwayworld.com/viewcolumn.cfm?colid=25873

I must remember to never talk about my desires to settle down and have a family infront of theatre majors. Because while I do really want a career in theatre and I really want to act, I want a family more. And those people who asked why I don't want a career, I do, and I can still have one. There are plenty of actors and actresses who started later than 30 years old and have made it far in the buisness, that tells me that there are plenty of sucessfull actors and actresses who started later in life out there (not famous just sucessful). I can do it I know I can.

I've stopped caring what people think about me a long time ago. But it's very interesting to say something to people who disagree with what you say and just watch them judge you. They're only thinking it but still you can see it. Judgement comes out and I litterally watch them judging me even though they think you can't tell.

I don't care what people think about me. I'm going to do what makes me happy. And right now that looks like I'm going to get married and have a career and have some kids somewhere in there. I can do all three.

I came to the realization today that I'm going to be ok. If my brother can drop out of college and find a job that he can live comfortably on then I can graduate from college and find a job that will DEF. let me live comfortably on. I'm going to be ok...

I'm really upset about the recent outbreak of school shootings. Especially this week. It seems as though my generation doesn't know how to deal with their feelings. I always feel badly for the school people who have to deal with everyone blaming them. People always need to blame someone and unfortunately it goes to the parents of the shooter (who like the Northern Illinois U. shooter's father had no idea and is devastated) or to the school. I absolutely hate when people blame the school system. They generally do the best they can. In this Illinois case they shouldn't have suspected that kid at all, who knows why he did it. Or Virgina Tech, everyone blamed the school for still having classes. For all they knew it was a targeted incident in the dorms and they thought they had the guy in custody. For real, there was no reason in their minds to cancel classes, it was in the dorm get the kids out not in.

I thought all of these things and I thought that we should stop blaming the schools and the parents (especially in the college shootings...my parents shouldn't have to take blame for something I've done now because I'm an adult and I make my own choices. I don't see them often enough for them to get blamed). I thought about how easy it is to get a gun. I also thought about a place like Germany where they don't really have guns and in the last 20 years they've had one, ONE school shooting where two, TWO people died...20 years! We top that with one school shooting here in America.

I also believe that this is a definite possibility: The Iraq War is really the first was that my generation has had to deal with or really remembers. We were alive for the last Bush-ian war but I believe I was in Kindergarten and I remember my parents kind of talking about it but I neither remember it nor could I comprehend what was happening. That ended and we were basically war free until about 2002. Since then all we hear on the news and in the papers is the war and how many more soldiers have died. It's difficult for anyone to really comprehend or be on board with, but especially my generation where this is our first real war that we're aware of and hear about all the time. I think that what happens is some of these shooters look at this war and see the way we dealt with our problems. Ok this country had these weapons we think but wasn't letting us know. Also, they didn't have democracy. So we went in and killed off the people who got in our way or didn't believe in our ways. Once their gone the problems will be over. Get rid of the bad guys and people will listen and everything will change. That's the message that this generation sees. So these people who are having problems, getting bullied, are completely alone, and can't quite comprehend things sees this message and think oh it's working there so I guess what I need to do is go in and get rid of the bad guys (and in some cases it could be anyone associated with the school) and then people will listen and change.

Of course rational people can understand that that's not the answer, but when they're in so much pain and some of them having illnesses or disabilities or whatever can't make those rational decisions. That's just what I'm observing and thinking. I feel like President Bush should make some sort of speech about the school shootings that just keep happening (especially since the war has started) although I don't know what he could say..."violence isn't the answer"? That would be quite hypocritical huh.

I think they need to re-release the movie Bang Bang You're Dead (not necessarily the play but the movie) it's such an amazing movie (mainly because it was derived off of such an incredible play) and it gives you an understanding into the mind of someone who is constantly bullied and has to make a decision to basically shoot up the school or not. It's really really well done and I think people can benefit from it. I don't think it will change the world but at this point I don't think it could hut.

It's getting scarier and scarier to go to a school as a student and probably even a teacher with this generation. With the shootings happening more and more it's becoming more real. Especially with the coverage it gets. Any kid who is on the brink is watching the coverage and thinking "oh man look at that kid finally getting his moment of power and glory. People finally got to notice him. I want that." It only takes some more thinking on his part or another news coverage to realize that he too can get his moment. That to me is the scariest. I feel like media has more power than it thinks.

I've never had to deal with something as devastating as a school shooting, nor do I really know of anyone who was involved in a school shooting but I pray that I never have to deal with that. I seem to be praying harder about it everyday because it's happening more and more everyday.

I find that I have the most time to post when I'm at work and getting paid to do it...is that wrong? I'm not sure.

Anyway, Noises Off is going fairly well...although I figured that once I got cast in a show at Towson with people who wanted to do Theatre professionally I wouldn't have to worry about the slacking off and non-memorized lines...clearly I was wrong. I guess it doesn't quite matter wheather or not it's professional or not, the fact remains that there will always be slackers and that to me is dissapointing. But the majority of the cast is very professional and working really hard and it's a great cast so...two weeks left and we'll see huh? That's a little scary.

Illnesses over (for the most part) now I'm just trying not to catch something new (seeing as how there are several things floating around this cast let alone the department). I believe everyone is calling everything the Noises Off Plauge.

I have make-up design in about 20 min. It's the third class and I don't want to go. Frankly, I don't much care for make-up design. I find that I just kind of dread it. I think it may have to do with the fact that I'm not even a little bit artistic so this is such a challenge and to top it off I don't really need this class in particular to graduate. I mean yes it's counting towards my 120 credits but I didn't necessarily need this class. Plus it's my second design class this semester...LAME!

Anyway...I guess that's really all for now!

For Lent, I gave up saying no to invitations because I was scared. I mean... within context... if I'm scared for my safety and I say no it's different than saying no because of my anxiety...is this the healthiest way to go about getting rid of anxiety? Probably not...but I'm gonna do it anyway. Plus I think it's a good one because I'm giving up something and I'm adding more of a social life to my life. So there it is.

SO because of questfest giving me 4 credits I have managed to have one class a week (except for thursdays where I have 2) and rehearsals in the evenings. It's a nice deal. I do however wish that I didn't have this deal whilst taking thesis and scene design because that's a lot of work but I guess it's better than having a heavy course load and taking those two classes ontop of that. Senior Seminar is going to be really REALLY good for me but it's going to scare the pants off of me (note to self: wear skirts). Hopefully I'll be able to get some decent hours in the box office as well...we'll see what happens this semest. I'm just uber excited to have David White in my life again because I love that man!!!

( Cause I haven't done one is forever )

I'M GOING TO BE A BRIDESMAID!!! I can't wait!! I'm SOOOOO excited!!! (and so grown up!) I CAN'T WAIT! And the girl that's getting married is AWESOME so it's even better...you know...that COULD be why I'm being her bridesmaid...cause I'm her friend...so...YAY!!